Wednesday, May 13, 2009 ' 7:28 AM
randal havent been sleeping well these few days, rpco cant concentrate, so much hav happened.
as u mentioned, u said tat its my freedom to blog. so here i go.
i'm realli glad i know u, and i know that i dun wanna let go. it seems like, everything disappeared in jus a split second. i didnt mention anything about breaking friendship, much less breaking our 'best' friendship. from yesterday's co practice, when u were smsing wenshan, i couldnt bear but just to watch. there was nothing i can do. =/
honestly, i know i did something wrong, something realli realli wrong, in being sarcastic and laughing when u r down. i know that a mere sorry cant reverse time, but i jus hope that this matter wont cost us our friendship. u know, i cant bear, for the break. there was so much fun u noe. the times we played ddr tgt, the times we drank bubble tea tgt, and in fact, the times we shared our worries tgt.
i'm sorry that i caused u to cry. honestly, i'm very sorry. but like u said, whats done is done. now i'm trying my utter best to repent from my mistake and gain back the friendship. but from yesterday's wenshan misphrasing about 'not coming co forever', i suppose ur grudge/sadness/anger for me, has rised far beyond what i can imagine.
i'm not mad at u, i'm not laughing at u. i'm sad becos of u. becos thr's nothing i can do. i'm a guy without siblings, and guy who didnt hav a v v happy childhood. i only treasure my family, and more of all, my close friends. i dont want all of this to happen.
if u can be forgiving enuff, to forgive wat i hav done, i promise there wont be a second time. u said u didnt like sarcastic comments, i know. i know i accidentally said it without considering ur feelings. so now i'm here to apologise sincerely. like i said, i'm not mad or laughing at ur blog post. whenever i tink about our quarrel, the only feeling = sad. randal emos bigtime. honestly. doesnt seem true on the outside, but yes, on the inside.
i want everything to be okay, and back to normal, like what we used to be. i know its probably wrong that i said u assumed much, and i'm sorry for that too. at least, the least i want now, is for us to be friends. wenshan have suffered the agony, and i feel the guilt. she feels that she hav added to our friction. and she said it was all bcos of me, that i lost a friend. i only want all to be okay, so that none of us can feel such agony. i beg for ur forgiveness, for which i dont wanna lose a great friend like u. but i wonder, am i tat 'great friend' to u, in ur mind anymore? i wonder...
oh, wat a day for me later. god bless.
