i duno? i'd wish you speak a lil more. how long was ur absence? to me, its like ages. idk, am i jus being too much? i'd tear everytime the topic arises, because i always hope for a positive or at least, a better outcome. disappointed, maybe a yes thr, but is it all because i ask too much? because i'd jus wish you'd said more than "anyhow!", those emoticons and "bleh!".
i'd always wished for better and more (ok i noe not everyone is comfortable with this word) mushy and touching. i'd always say things like, how much i miss you, that i've learnt to cherish you and the chance of communicating so 'freely' and 'easily' with you. i'd say how much your absence, make me realise how much i love you, and that without you, i wont do.
but whenever i say those, u give realli realli short replies. i told u alrdy, u seemed like u didnt care =/ of course, i wished (and always will think) that u care x.x but ur words and actions sometimes, may make me think that u dont care =/ i dont know, am i jus thinking too much?
i duno, i find that everything's changed after ur trip. ur words hav no 'touching-ness' in it alrdy, whenever i said i miss u (and aft tat a huge chunk of touching and mushy words), u'd say some realli sweet and touching stuffs to me...u'd do something real sweet like gimme a random sms out of nowhere the next day =X or gimme a random call x.x i'd wish for one, i'd wait for one, in fact, i'd long for one now...
was our relationship too smooth? heard from others that relationships hav rocky roads. until today, not realli much of that 'rockiness'. and when the rockiness come, they come as a landslide...too much for me to hold onto alrdy =/
maybe, i jus yearn too much. you say sorry, i can feel ur apologetic-ness, but maybe thrs more than a sorry. of course, not saying that i'd neglect ur sorry. but sometimes, sorry doesnt cure =/ i'd wish for more than that. but once again, m i wishing for too much?
P.S.: I love you so much, the only source of happiness or sadness, would be from you <3
