Hello people, i'm trying to resume life as per normal, but oh c'mon, it's easier said than done.

Yesterday was a day at RPCO, as usual. Having known that Ronald is arriving, I went early to school, but slipped my mind that the new comm were still having class. To not waste any precious time, I went to the library to grab some books for reference. Came across some Chinese Orchestra books and viewed them randomly. Quite useful, but didn't have time to read it all. Met up with Shuzhen and Yikhung, and thus off to TRCC for practice.

The rest came not long after, such as Cassandra, Wenshan, Justina and company. Was glad that Cassandra came, after not seeing her for a week. She's the usual all-hyper girl I know, a definite smile on my face. Glad to have the rest around too, always cracking the coldest jokes and doing the weirdest actions. Practiced some CNY songs, along with Sai Ma (Er Hu Qi Zou). On the way home, we sung cannons everywhere, ranging from typical CO songs to CNY songs. Was totally hilarious I suppose.

Today was a day of Music Composition. Class content boring as ever, but teammates are still the best. NuSion (as we presume to be) only had Daryl, Amon and Justin today. Was quite fun anyway, and poor Daryl had some problems with his laptop. Crashed and much hardwork was gone, Amon, Justina and I were putting much effort in trying to console him. Presented (and got praised for the bullshitting) and met wenshan, had prata sausage (ages since I've had it) and off home.

Not in the really up-to-shape Randal recently, sincere apologies. Though it may seem nothing much face-to-face, but much have been happening. Too much, for me to accept. Speech, MSN, SMSes and phone calls may seem all the normal Randal, but emotionally scarred I am. This mask, is for the sake of all of you. For all of you to know, that no matter how bloody sad I am, there's no point bringing you all down with it. Wouldn't want to end up in situations like giving you all a bitter face when you all talk to me, a hot temper when something goes wrong, or an overly emotional response over topics I don't really fancy. I feel very cold, very lonely (no matter how many people are around me), very sad. Is this the end? The end to what I all the while believed to be forever? I believe it is, and no matter what I do, there is nothing that's gonna change it.

P.S.: I will never give you the cold shoulder, even if I feel the worst of all. Each time I delete one of the past sms, I'd tear. But that's the only way, I'd forget what happened in the past. It's the only way, I can move on. But I still wonder...what went wrong? Where, was I wrong?

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Name: Randal Lim Peng Soon
Gender: Male
Relationship: Single/Unavailable
Age: 18
Birthdate: 29/4/1991

School: Republic Polytechnic
Year: 3
Major: Sonic Arts
Minor: CO, Zhongruan
Future Career: Zhongruan Performer
Interest Group: RPCO

Likes: Play music, listen music
Dislikes: Sinister, cruel and evil humans
Hobbies: CO, CO and more CO

A better ZhongRuan for 2010
Liu Xing's Zhongruan solo book
Zhongruan NAFA Grade 7-9 book
Get to perform at renowned venue with SRJC
Work hard for this year's Diploma In Zhongruan Exam

Republic Poly:

W34L~
Amin
Cassendra
Denise
Joanne Leo
Jun Liang (JL)
Pei Yong

E35b~
Arief
Fauziah
Hu Deng Kai
Jacob Lau Jian Rong
Lek Yong Liang
Shawn Chin Shun Zhang
Shermane Ten Min-er

RPCO~
RPCO Blog
Ang Shu Zhen
Choy Ee Hwa
Genevieve Tai
Jason Chua
Justina Ang
Kong Yik Hung
Liu Wen Shan
Seow Mei Ling
Tong Wei Jie

Others~
Chew Yao Jie
Lim Yu Sheng
Melissa Tan
Pamela Soh
Sandra Tan
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Northland Secondary:
Chua Wen Jian
Eugene
Grace Neo
Janice
Ong Siti Nadiah
Siti Mariam
Tricia Tan
Yee Pei Qi
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Celebrities:
Benjamin Hum
BOA
David Gan
Felicia Chin
Joanne Peh
Kevin De Jiang
Nat Ho
Patricia Mok
Sharon Au
Shawn Chan
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Others:

Random COs
Lau Xuan Kai (PCO)
Low Jian Sen (PCO)
Ng Zi Quan (PCO)
Wong Yong Xiang (PCO)
Xiu Ru (PCO)
Yi Zhan (BLCCCO)

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