Hello all :) I'm trying my best to type this post in my bestest mood ._. although its somewhat impossible. Shaken by too much stuffs today, sorry.

Firstly is TRCC. Having requested for 4 microphones since weeks ago, i have already expected to see microphones today. Not all 4 is okay, but at least 2. :) Yet, when we went on stage, we weren't given a single microphone. Having us to do all the manual labour, with our instruments in hand. Carry chairs, music stands, this is ridiculous. After which zaini commented that our transitions took too long, and blamed us for it .__. such a false accusation. After which, the acoustics was crap. With such an open venue, we wanted to just get a simple good sound from each instrument. 4 microphones, the most basic of all, considering that our orchestra is small. None, not even one ._. attempted to negotiate with kavitha, and was in the end, criticised by zaini in front of all. LOL ==" he said he didn't like working with us? if we didn't like the way trcc works, we can always open shop elsewhere. so be it, we shall ._. don't mind me, but fuck you hypocritical bastard. to think you went to apologise to yh and shuz after that. =="

Next is not anger lah. :) Phew, take a deep breath Randal! This is probably about love life again lah D: ah ya, somethings dont really work out much. Was talking to April about this. Always envying people, seeing them so happy with their bf/gf, and I know I'll never get it. Okay, I got it before, but it never lasted. That sucked more D: Seeing others holding hands, kissing, hugging with such security, warmth and assurance. Having each other no matter what the world throws at them, they do their very best to give happiness to one another. They'd do anything to bring that smile to each other. Their hearts pump when they see each other, but mysteriously feel extremely comfortable when with each other. These smiles, these laughter, these warmth...I'll never, never get.


Things don't always work out the way we want it. Try so hard, for what? Not everything works out. In the end, we end up getting hurt. We end up getting so fucking painful, this heart. I gave a piece of my heart to each person i've liked before, i've loved before...and now i see so many holes in my heart. Because no one ever returns that heart to be. They take it away, and don't put their own piece in mine. Is this selfishness, or am I just asking too much? :/ I'm destined bah, to be lonely, to die alone in this world. Born without siblings is bad enough, born with parents that neglect me is bad enough, born with friends that always take advantage, bully and chuck me aside is bad enough. Now love is playing tricks on me? ._. i'm trying to keep my cool already, but soon i'm going to break down. Yes, very soon.

Okay, all in all, Randal sucks. This world sucks, love sucks. I don't trust it, I don't believe it. At least in my context, in my way of life, it'll never come true. This love story, will never begin. Bye. Oh wait, i forgot to add. I'm fucking weak.

P.S.: Sorry for thinking too much. I'll try to be a great friend to you, but I'm sorry, it will be tough. :/

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Name: Randal Lim Peng Soon
Gender: Male
Relationship: Single/Unavailable
Age: 18
Birthdate: 29/4/1991

School: Republic Polytechnic
Year: 3
Major: Sonic Arts
Minor: CO, Zhongruan
Future Career: Zhongruan Performer
Interest Group: RPCO

Likes: Play music, listen music
Dislikes: Sinister, cruel and evil humans
Hobbies: CO, CO and more CO

A better ZhongRuan for 2010
Liu Xing's Zhongruan solo book
Zhongruan NAFA Grade 7-9 book
Get to perform at renowned venue with SRJC
Work hard for this year's Diploma In Zhongruan Exam

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Shermane Ten Min-er

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