OH DEAR ME! :( I've been missing for a total of 13 days :/ I'm so sorry for being absent from blogger for such a long time! Been really really busy nowadays, plus tired too! :/ hehe, but I think it's about time to clear the dust here!

How's life you'd ask? So-so I guess! :) Have some nice classmates to hang out with at times, dear RPCO mates to hang out with too! Hang out with April in the morning for breakfast and some piano playing before going to class usually :D quite a good start of each day that more or less motivates us to go class. :) Although we always ask ourselves 'I wish I can stay here and play piano whole day without going class!' HAHA! I wish!

Recently been going SPCO quite alot because performance is in a few days. :) Quite okay with the songs except for Farandole's 3rd page. Oh god, the mere thought of the mad speed! *hits forehead and faint* Had nice food at SP's koufu with Joel and some SPCO mates. Nice place (better than RP's for sure :/) hehe! Look forward to erm, trying out more food next week probably! :D

As for love, that I'd have to put aside for now. Even though our relationship was over for about 4 months, but you never left my heart. I still dream of you quite alot :/ Even though I tell myself so much, that loving you does not mean having you, I can't bring myself to accept this reality, till today. I can't bring myself to love another as of yet, only infatuation, eye-candies and maybe just mere liking. After our broke up, I did try to move on with another, but it ended even before it started. Another blow indeed to me ._. Why is it, so easy to love, but so hard to be loved back?
Until today, even though there's so much laughter and smiles in my life, but there's so much agony, loneliness and pain in my heart. Do you still tear, for me? I doubt you do anymore. Because I'd say with a conscious mind, I'm tearing much more than I used to, because of you.

People tell me "Those who make you cry, aren't worth crying for. When someone is worth crying for, that person won't make you cry." Cry cry cry, is that all you can do, Randal? Such a weakling. After a chat with someone today, (and meeting her coincidentally in the library! okay, out of point), I cried in the bus on the way home. People stared, and yes they did, in awe. Even the girl beside me offered me tissue ._. this is so ridiculous. Even the public pities me.

So yeap, that's about it for me. I still wake up each morning, look at myself in the mirror as I put on my mask to school or out, and that will surely continue until the day comes when I can really, forget you. Because no matter how much sorry to say, how apologetic you feel...I can always forgive, but I can never, ever forget. Thanks for you have loved me, but that love, has ended. At least, on your end.

P.S.: You always talk to me so much about him. If I could be anyone in this world, I'd be him, so you could love me too.

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Name: Randal Lim Peng Soon
Gender: Male
Relationship: Single/Unavailable
Age: 18
Birthdate: 29/4/1991

School: Republic Polytechnic
Year: 3
Major: Sonic Arts
Minor: CO, Zhongruan
Future Career: Zhongruan Performer
Interest Group: RPCO

Likes: Play music, listen music
Dislikes: Sinister, cruel and evil humans
Hobbies: CO, CO and more CO

A better ZhongRuan for 2010
Liu Xing's Zhongruan solo book
Zhongruan NAFA Grade 7-9 book
Get to perform at renowned venue with SRJC
Work hard for this year's Diploma In Zhongruan Exam

Republic Poly:

W34L~
Amin
Cassendra
Denise
Joanne Leo
Jun Liang (JL)
Pei Yong

E35b~
Arief
Fauziah
Hu Deng Kai
Jacob Lau Jian Rong
Lek Yong Liang
Shawn Chin Shun Zhang
Shermane Ten Min-er

RPCO~
RPCO Blog
Ang Shu Zhen
Choy Ee Hwa
Genevieve Tai
Jason Chua
Justina Ang
Kong Yik Hung
Liu Wen Shan
Seow Mei Ling
Tong Wei Jie

Others~
Chew Yao Jie
Lim Yu Sheng
Melissa Tan
Pamela Soh
Sandra Tan
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Northland Secondary:
Chua Wen Jian
Eugene
Grace Neo
Janice
Ong Siti Nadiah
Siti Mariam
Tricia Tan
Yee Pei Qi
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Celebrities:
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BOA
David Gan
Felicia Chin
Joanne Peh
Kevin De Jiang
Nat Ho
Patricia Mok
Sharon Au
Shawn Chan
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Others:

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Low Jian Sen (PCO)
Ng Zi Quan (PCO)
Wong Yong Xiang (PCO)
Xiu Ru (PCO)
Yi Zhan (BLCCCO)

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